To you I give the ocean
To you I give the waves
And how their churning stills my mind
And my boy.
To you I give my daughter's fear of it
And its overcoming.
To you I give her leaping, yelling
"I am God, parting the sea."
You can also have my son's retort
that was Moses."
My offering, pleasing to you:
The beer drinkers at Bruno's,
The sand on the floor,
The panicked slantwise retreat of the crabs.
Also that second line in the Quarter
(I know it was a rich white people second line, but still),
The sweat wrung down my back,
My three showers in a day.
My friends afar are yours, as is their meeting
The footsqueak of the beach
The worrying of jellyfish
And Jupiter, insisting over the sea.
I offer to you
My absurd toenail polish
The despair of seven months of tinnitus
That tick bite from camping.
I make a burnt offering of my fear
And my frailty
My impatience, my need
And evenings in a hammock.
To you I give my names
To you I give my faces and my hands
To you I give the story I call me
That I still pretend is real.
Please take it all.
Leave me empty
Leave me open
And leave the light on when you go.